I constantly ask myself this question-Where am I going? I think it's important to help me have a good perspective. However lately I've been focusing my thoughts on where have I been or really what have I been through.
I've been thinking a lot about where I was a year ago and 2 years ago. I've been thinking about what kind of path I'm walking along. I can tell you from the start that I am on a path that's led by my Heavenly father.
The cool thing is that I've had this blog for a while now and I can actually click back and read where I was days, months, and years ago. That is so cool! So I want to highlight 3 things and tell you what i've learned since then.
#1- September 2008, Never Let Go
So, where am I today? Well, it still doesn't make any sense to me. However, I have seen a couple tell their story and encourage others to follow Christ. I have seen a beautiful little girl come in to the world and give them so much joy. As we approach Brook's 2 year anniversary, I'm reminded how blessed I am to have a little boy that God has trusted me with. I know how short life is. I never know when my time is up here. I never know when Finn's time is up here. But, I do know God is here and today I can proclaim - He NEVER lets go.
#2 June 2009, Sean Strickland
I miss Sean everyday. Actually, a few days ago I looked for him on ichat and then remembered after I looked that he's with Jesus. I just wanted to ask him a quick question. So instead, I just browse through emails from him or ichats we had. That makes me feel like we talked. I just wish he could meet Finn. He would just love him! I'm still praying for Jana and Gabi everyday. That's all I can do.
#3 September 2009, The Dad's perspective
I read this post often. It reminds me of how blessed I am to have such an amazing husband and best friend. Gregory is the most incredible father. He has read books, spent lots of time in prayer, reading devotionals, etc. Anything he can do to better Finn's life he makes it happen. Wow. I am so blessed. I'm actually speechless. God literally made me from one of his ribs because we are definitely soul mates.
So let me sum it up. The last 2 years have put me through all kinds of things. But as I wrote in the first one, God has NEVER let go. He has always stayed by my side. He's brought me rescue even when I don't get answers. I get comfort. And that's all I can ask for. God is my perfect Heavenly father and for that I am eternally grateful.