Just a warning-this is going to be a very open and honest post. I have been dealing with fear over the last 5 months. I have fears for everything but lately it has been worse than ever. Fear that I'm not doing anything with my life, fear that I can't get pregnant, fear that I''m not in the right job at work, fear that i'm not a good wife, fear that I won't be a mom or if I am one I won't be a good one, fear that i'm not a good friend, fear that i'm not a good daughter or daughter in law. As you can see i'm really struggling. Today I had a bit of a break through. My morning devotinal was about being dead inside and how God can bring you back to life. Then I got some encouragement from Proverbs 31 Ministries. ANd this is where God has begun to move. Here's the verses it was talking about...
Isaiah 41:10, "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." (NIV)
Isaiah 43:1b, "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine." (NIV)
Genesis 15:1, "After this, the word of the LORD came to Abram in a vision: Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your very great reward." (NIV)
After the verses, this question was asked-What are some of your greatest fears? Spend time today contemplating why these fears have taken root in your heart and telling God how you are feeling.
That is what I am doing today, contemplating why these fears have taken root in my heart and I'm using the blog to talk to you about how i'm feeling. I will be praying through this over the next days, weeks, months...however long it takes. I'd love your prayers during this difficult time in my life. Thanks in advance for sharing in my story. I will keep you all updated.
I'm claiming God's word-do not Fear! I know I can beat this!!